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28 July 2006 @ 12:39 am
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name: tin

age: 20

height: 5'3''

current weight: 115

target: 100 (at least)

Well, hey everyone! I'm glad to have found such a community that can emphatize with the difficulty of going thru the process of weight loss. Two years ago I lost weight thru a semi-crash diet due to depression and reached up to 92 pounds. After maintaining it for quite some time, I noticed that it creeped up and up and up until I find myself in this weight. Of course, a big factor to this would be my depression due to some loss of an important person that I used food to cope with loneliness. From 92 to 98 pounds, I kept myself then to that weight using low carb diet, particularly the atkins diet and oh well, I really became a glutton and addict again to carbs and ballooned up to this weight. Its not that I'm so fat, but its just that I have so much insecurities with being 15 pounds fatter, people seem to make it feel you more guilty like, hey you look so fat now and all and the fact is you can never say, cut me up some slack, I am going thru a lot. So now, I have been able to keep it to a 115 after it reached to maybe a top weight of 118 and w ell it ain't going down so I am now starting today, the atkins diet once again and well I'm revising it not eating fats and all, just low low carb, eggs and tuna maybe.

One other problem the did spring out of my depression was semi unconscious late night eating where I just wake up and then I go and raid the fridge and in the process you don't have the right mind to know that you are actually doing it and it is only after a few seconds ( where you just ate a lot already) that you notice that you did eat so much and that is the time guilty comes in. Imagine that it happens for let me see, 3 to 5 times in the 2 am to 5 am range and well I am in the process of stopping myself. They say that this disorder is due to depression. Has anyone had this experience?

I just need someone to motivate me to stick to the diet and not have any slip ups due to the distortion of the "free day today" or just one bite excuse. I need utmost help guys. Goodluck to everyone.
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
dietgaldietgal on August 4th, 2006 08:31 pm (UTC)
Seriously, if people tell you that you've gained weight, say, "yea, thats right, and dont I look wonderful". If you're 5'3 and 115 you are not even close to being overweight. If you want to eat healthy and exercise thats fine, but there is no reason you should diet. You should not let your weight dip below 100 lbs as you said it had been previously. Thats disgustingly skinny. There is no possible way you could look fat at 115.
sisigcritique on August 5th, 2006 07:44 am (UTC)
actually they notice that i have gained weight but i just am not comfty with my body anymore..my scoliosis hurts and all my clothes fit bad and thats so depressing since this extra weight symbolizes my discipline which has been really far far not my original disposition.